Honestly!

Ok everything with this pregnancy appears normal from the outside. But if you look inside it is far from it. This has been such a different pregnancy for me. Not just because I now live in the East Coast or see a different doctor every time I go in, or the fact that I'm having a girl. My body has just reacted differently to this baby and some interesting possible complications have arise. I was sick of course my first and second trimesters. Thank goodness for Zofram I have been able to gain weight instead of loosing it. I have noticed a lot of depression with this baby something that did not happen with Blake but here is why: I was stoked to find out I was having a girl but then I was told I had anterior placenta. That explains why I couldn't feel her as much. Ok I guess it happens no biggy. I have been contracting since my 17th week with this baby. A couple of times I had them 7 minutes appart. I had been cramping like menstrual cramps...I was checked and well all was well. I was told that I needed to be ultrasound every four weeks to make sure the placenta wasn't covering the cervix. Since I want to attempt a vbac they have to watch it close. This last Sunday I fell in my bathroom and I just went ahead and still went to church. I contracted a little bit. During Sacrament meeting I was having contractions so I decided to head home. On the way home they got painful so I just told myself good thing u have an ultrasound tomorrow they'll make sure all is well. Sure enough I go in and the Tech keeps paging the radiologist cause something didn't seem right to her. Having worked for Utah Imaging for 5 years I knew this wasn't pretty. Well she just said I just want to make sure nothing is going into the uterus. I'm like oh nice. Well I was handed a Dr.s order with the diagnosis as Placenta Accreta? just like that. I was like ummmmm ok. She said this is really hard to diagnose but we'll keep a close eye on it ok? SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURE OK NO PROBLEM!!!!!! After doing research, talking to my ultrasound tech friends, going on support websites it is not fun to know this might be a possibility. No one knows for sure until after u deliver if I don't expel the placenta within 30 minutes they have to surgically remove it. If its super attached they have to make an incision which I already have from my c-section. So what to do? VBAC vs C-Section? well who knows everyone tells me something different!! at least they know its a possibility so they'll be ready for it. I just need to stop freaking out and pray and hope that all will be well. And thank goodness my mother will be here for me. I am so grateful for my friends and their support. I couldn't do it without them. Not having a husband really SUCKS!!! well I had to record this experience somewhere so there it is Ava one day I'll read it to you :)